had gf's daughter S staying with me over the wkd. she's only 13, very talented in music and super sweet. her freshness reminded me how simple life was like when i was younger. this morning i checked work email as usual. a customer's email brought the shocking sad news, her PI passed away in a single car accident last friday night, it happened to be the date that he wanted me to call him and follow up, we just spoke 2 weeks ago. did he plan this?? i can't think. what am i going to say to her? "sorry about your loss, but will you please just carry on and go ahead with the purchase? Quickly?" it's awkward and depressing, during this recession time period! got into my car and started to drive, i saw a post-it note left by S, saying she was thankful for me having her this past wkd, and how much she appreciated the time we spent together. this lovely, warm and sweet little girl，made me realize how cold i've changed to during these years working. and i found my words to say to my customer, "i'm sorry and please take it easy".

 

the whole morning i could not bring my brain back to function, no matter how many coffees to have. Teammate J and I tried everthing we could to bring a discontinued instrument back to live at the office for a demo tmr and friday. we were still missing a few parts 'til early afternoon, and nobody knew where they were!! it was supposed to be here in the morning. we were about to call it off...following consequences will be quarter million consumables going to the waste. not to mention these couple of months' long-day and stressful work. drama finally left us alone, shipping company found the parts that were lost in transition, they were forced to deliver o/n so J can have it tmr morning...

 

it's a month of pain, don't know how i got this far, life and work are disconnected, what happened to living a life to the fullness?